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The smell of popcorn, cotton candy, and roasted peanuts fill the air. The sound of children’s laughter, music playing and proud applause are heard abroad. The sight of clowns, tighropes, jugglers, and people flying through the air create the anxious feeling of both excitement and fear. No, I’m not at your house! I’m at the circus. Well, you know the saying. My house is just one clown short of a circus. I can see where you possibly got confused.

On a serious note, a member of our Partners to Meniere’s and Vertigo Without Borders group, asked for a video on a specific subject. Deanna wanted to know if I had any advice for partners who feel depressed from the change in the relationship after their warrior battled Meniere’s Disease and Verrigo. She gave a specific example on how her partner could no longer go to the movie theater due to the stimulation and sound. I’m guessing she is missing her relationship as she once knew it.

Let’s look at this from a different type of view. The jugglers at the circus amaze me. These two people juggle pins in the air and back forth; making the task look so easy. My favorite part is when someone just starts throwing in more pins and the jugglers don’t even flintch. They are totally in tune with each other at all times. But, what would happen if they never practiced that before? What if someone just started throwing in pins they weren’t use to handling together? The pins would all fall.

I’m sure once in awhile jugglers miss a pin. They pick it up and the show goes on. Reminds me much of relationships. We’ve all been there. When problems arise (we drop a pin), we work through them and continue on in a positive direction. When Menieres, Vertigo and sudden harsh illnesses come into play, it’s exactly like throwing in a bunch of pins the jugglers didn’t practice taking on. They could handle it eventually, but only with practice, time, and patience. Are you picking up what I’m throwing down here? No, not the pins! It’s the point!

In general, relationships are work. The biggest problem in communication is assuming it happened. Couples need to comminicate and work at the relationship together. If one gives up, it’s over whether the words are spoken or not. The warrior will go through different phases both physically and mentally. This is guite exhausting on them as I know it must be for their partner. Every warrior is different. They all struggle but, if they give up entirely; there is not much the partner can do except suggest the warrior find a more positive support group and/or seeing a professional. I think depression can be very contiguous. What your partner deflects, you will reflect. I highly urge the partner to seek support as well. If both attempt the positive partner approach, there’s no doubt there is a light at the end of the darkest moments. You will learn how to juggle together.

If your warrior is anything like me, they fight for their quality of life. However, sometimes my fight has to be by resting. At those times, I am unable to attend the theater, events and functions. That is when the partner and warrior need to change their thinking completely and come up with ideas together. Renting a new release movie at home, getting treats, and some cuddling is well spent time. Can’t get to that wedding? Get out old photos of your dating years and laugh together at your memories and journey. Make a scrap book with them while you’re at it. If you have to miss that concert, download the newest album and relax on your patio/deck together. If your partner can’t hear, let them have the lyrics in front of them and put the device on their foot. They can feel the music while reading the words. There are many things you can come up with but, both the warrior and partner must want the time together. It’s also important the warrior and partner understand that the partner needs a quality of life as well. If the partner is really excited about a new movie out in theaters, the warrior should be supportive of them going with a friend for a night out. If there was a party they both scheduled to attend and the warrior is not well, the warrior should suggest their partner still go. Unless of course they are spinning to the point of needing care.

If you’re having trouble juggling the new pins, remember it’s a process. If you need help, seek it. Communicate, be patient, work at it, think outside the box and stay positive. Life itself is like a circus. You can either love it or hate it but, one thing is for sure. The show will still go on.

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*Tinnitus:

I use Lipoflavonoid (hit link to view) for the ringing in my ear. It has reduced my tinnitus tremendously. ~Regina

*Infections:

To treat ear, nose and throat infection, I use Colloidal Silver . (hit link to view) When I am sick, I use it as an antibiotic to treat infection. ~Amy

*Ear Pressure:

Since I have been using Tea Tree Oil, (hit link to view) the pressure in my affected ear has decreased significantly and it is not as sore as it was. ~Ted

*Natural Diuretic:

I love my Root Tea. (hit link to view) I use it as a natural diuretic and it also helps with my IBS symptoms. ~Tina

*Micro Circulation/Helping reduce Tinnitus:

I use Ginkgo (hit link to view) as it increases micro circulation, helping reduce tinnitus. Recommended by my chiropractor. ~Judy

*Migraine Associated Vertigo/Bruising:

I use Arnica Montana (hit link to view) for head and ear pain, migraine associated vertigo and tinnitus, and post drop attack pain/bruising. ~Elke

*Ear Fullness:

I rub Deep Blue from Doterra (hit link to view) behind my ears to get great relief. It seems like it ‘opens up’ my ears. ~Esther

I love Deep Blue. (hit link to view) I also have Copaiba (hit link to view) coming this week. ~Amy

*Fatigue:

I love using my Thyme Tea (hit link to view) for energy. It is a total re-boost for me! ~Gina Marie

*Immune System:

I use a drop or two of Fighting Five (linked) in water and breathe it in while sleeping. It boosts the immune system/controls bacteria and germs. ~Tommy

*Dizzy/Motion Sickness:

When I’m off balance and feeling the motion sickness, Liddell (linked) helps relief the nausea. ~Angela

*Balance:

I heard of Vertisil (hit link to view) in a support group. I honestly thought I would be wasting my time but, I was at a point where I would try anything to escape the sensation of swaying and spinning. Its been a month and I have had so much relief. ~Deena

*Hearing Loss:

Although this did not restore my hearing, I do feel as if Hear All (hit link to view) has slowed down the process. I think it has made the tunnel sounds of words a bit clearer as well. ~Jen

*Anxiety:

When I start feel the anxiety coming on, RediCalm (hit link to view) takes the edge off. ~Kristine

This is just a quick list that I was able to gather from reading what warriors had to say. It’s about time the real sufferers get their voice and opinions, from their own experience, out to others. I know without a doubt that my prescriptions are necessary to maintain my health. However, I do take supplements as well. Some doctors will actually recommend certain supplements due to side affects of medications. Always, consult your doctors before trying anything new. Please note that the above members are not responsible for these products. Additionally, refer to all disclaimers noted throughout this site.

Happy Supplementing!

It’s a phrase we hear often by advocates. Many people have adopted these words in their communities as well. You will hear, “zero tolerance for bullying” or, “zero tolerance for animal abuse” used all the time. But when have you used it for your own life? I live by the zero tolerance rule and so should you.

I have zero tolerance for many things in my life. It’s not all about my disease or health issues either. Everything in your life should have a balance. If someone is tipping your balance scale with negativity, you need to take control of that immediately. You are only treated the way you allow people to treat you. With so many things on my scale, I have zero tolerance for negative people in my life. They are either removed completely or put at arms length. My scale must stay leveled. My peace depends on my decisions. I can’t blame someone continuously hurting me in life if I’m tolerating their behavior. Taking responsibility isn’t easy but; I suggest you do an accounting of the bitter, angry, and negative people you are allowing to steal your joy in life. At the end of the day, your happiness truly depends on you.

When you don’t practice zero tolerance in your life, you hurt yourself and sometimes the other people supporting you. They are a positive force, most likely suffering a bit as they watch your pain from someone else. You’re frustrated, your loved ones are aggravated and for what? For whom?

I’m not always right about life. However, I think I’ve learned many lessons throughout my difficult journey. Enough disappointments to feel confident enough to give you this article of advice and inspiration. I have cut people out of my life. Did it sting a bit? It did sting but, their actions and words stung harder. Again, zero tolerance needed to be used. Some people think I’m insensitive for this and some are intimidated by my strong character. In the end, I’m at peace no matter what. Being blunt and strong does not make me wrong as a person. I know many people who look at others and life through fantasy goggles. I understand that it is their way to tolerate the pain and betrayal. However, until they see it for what it truly is, they will never be balanced within themselves or in their life.

Why are you spending so much time trying to figure out and analyze people who have hurt you? In life, especially if you struggle with health issues, your energy should be spent on the people making a positive impact. My balance scale is very important and at the top it reads “zero tolerance”. What does yours say? Something to honestly think about.

There’s a popular saying, “I have no F__ (insert bad word) to give”. Apparently that word is clearly used as a form of measurement in today’s society. Well, sometimes I run out of another F word. I run out of forks. If you have a hard time getting your loved ones to understand your fatigue and your difficulty keeping up with the rest of the world; this article is definitely a read to save.

My daughter asked me a question while gently riding the waves on our recent vacation. She asked if I had the money to buy anything, what would I buy? It’s a typical kid’s question. Unfortunately, she doesn’t have a typical mom. This is something she has grown use to and after my answer; she dunked me under the water giggling.

I told her that most things I want, can’t be bought. Awareness for vestibular disorders, specifically Meniere’s Disease, is number one. However, time and energy come in at a very close second. As I got dunked for not saying a mansion and pony; I knew I’d be writing and article on this subject. So what does forks have to do with any of this?

A woman once wrote an article describing energy as spoons. The article was an awesome read and made a lot of sense. I recall thinking how some things I struggle with were not in the article. I describe these struggles of time and energy as forks.

Many people have judged us warriors and labeled us as ‘lazy’. No offense, but on a good day, I do more than most women do in a week. But we all know that it will catch up with us at some point. When it does, we will have to rest for hours and days to recover. On bad days, just showering is a struggle. I can’t even count how many times I’ve had “not working” thrown in my face. The argument of “if you can do all that, you can work like other women jungling”, can be easily explained in forks.

Look at it this way: The healthy person and the warrior both have 20 forks a day to give. The forks represent energy. The healthy person spends 5 forks on daily chores, food shopping, house cleaning, doing bills, laundry, etc. The warrior, struggling the invisible conditions, must give out 8 forks for the same tasks. The healthy person spends 5 forks on their kids, school papers, homework, sports and events. This costs the warrior 7 forks. The healthy person spends 5 forks on themselves, time with their spouse, children, family, and all the extras of the day; leaving 5 forks left for working. The warrior only has 5 forks left at this point and needs 8 just to finalize the last duties; let alone have forks to do a 9 to 5 job. Usually, by 5pm, we are out of forks and still need to complete the day. There are so many things I’d love to accomplish but, I’m out of forks. As a warrior, I must manage my forks wisely. Some days, I’m trying to manage life with half that number of forks.

If you have judgemental people in your life, get rid of them. You don’t need that negativity. Some people we just can’t get rid of that easily. It’s just not that simple. Whether it’s a spouse struggling to understand or a teenage child acting out trying to grasp that you’re ill; put them at arms length for a bit. Explain the forks in the hopes they will understand your battle. When they forget and get demanding, just say, “Sorry, but I have no more forks to give”. If they truly love you and want to understand you, they will have no problem using their own forks to help you out. It takes time as adjusting is a process for everyone involved. As far as the other people in your life judging you at every turn, cut them out of your life. Arguing and trying to justify yourself, takes 30 forks. You don’t have enough and they clearly are not worth it. In life, in your disease, in everything you do; sometimes you just have to say, “fork you” and keep moving on in a positive direction. At the end of the day, nobody is going to go as hard for you as YOU!

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INSPIRATION from February 4, 2018:

All my friends and group members on Meniere’s and Vertigo Without Borders knew what that night meant to me. It was not just a game and a win. It was my father’s dream, his daughters’ passion and our family’s biggest bond. My sister was an original Liberty Bell Cheerleader during the late 70s and early 80s. Our father passed away in January of 2011. All the private messages from members and personal friends were overwhelming and touched my heart. But, as usually, it also got me thinking deeper.

We were the underdogs and we were the fans ridiculed. The Eagles spent years trying and always giving up on themselves and letting us down. But, true fans never stopped believing in them. Like a rollar coaster, emotions high and low, frustrated, then happy, then winning; then losing at the end every time. For years we watched them take hit after hit. And then this season, they CHANGED their thinking. Even the few they lost, they came back fighting harder. Complications scared us fans when Wentz got hurt. But, they were determined and feared nothing. Foles came in to finish what was started. Even after they made it into the Superbowl, it wasn’t good enough for nonbelievers. So the underdogs fought even harder. And guess what happened because they kept positive and they fought for it? They won! They came out fighting, they wanted it, and they took it.

Are you picking up what I’m throwing down here? It’s like the ride of life and/or Meniere’s Disease. You never know when better days or remission is right around the corner. So no matter how many years or seasons it takes of being put down, riding the rollar coaster, taking hit after hit, and being scared; don’t you ever give up! Please keep believing in yourself. Fellow life and vertigo warriors will always be here to cheer you on and congratulate you on your win.

If you want to fly, you have to get rid of the negativity holding you down.

#flywarriorsfly ❤

💥Looking for more awareness and support on Meniere’s Disease and/or Vertigo? Here’s a list of where to find and follow me and other warriors! 👣

Facebook (open page)- The Balacing Act

Instagram-Balancing With Gee

Facebook (private group/highly monitored)-A place for warriors to privately be yourself and safely vent or seek advice: Meniere’s and Vertigo Without Borders

Facebook (private group)-A place for Partners of warriors to help each other with encouragement and advice: Partners to Meniere’s and Vertigo Without Borders

Facebook (private group)-A place to openly pray and seek spiritual support: Meniere’s and Vertigo With Christian Borders

The words show and tell are as catchy as the newest trend with Meniere’s and Vertigo warriors. Many are attempting to strip away from prescriptions. Fear of long term side affects and lack of insurance coverage is truly taking its toll. Although the ritual of managing medical conditions through natural resources has been around for decades, the subject of supplements has become the most popular of conversations.

There is one issue with recommending products. What works for one warrior, may have little or no affect for another. However, Supplements seem to be a huge part of warriors lives in order to maintain a quality life for them. Like medication, it is all trial and error. Hearing and seeing testimonials opens the doors to exploring natural remedies for symptoms relating to Meniere’s Disease and Vertigo.

I ran a post in my 1.6k global Private Facebook Group, Meniere’s and Vertigo Without Borders, (hit link to join) curious as to what supplements/natural products warriors were using to seek relief. Here are their testimonials:

*(I DO NOT SELL)*

*Tinnitus:

I use Lipoflavonoid (hit link to view) for the ringing in my ear. It has reduced my tinnitus tremendously. ~Regina

*Infections:

To treat ear, nose and throat infection, I use Colloidal Silver . (hit link to view) When I am sick, I use it as an antibiotic to treat infection. ~Amy

*Ear Pressure:

Since I have been using Tea Tree Oil, (hit link to view) the pressure in my affected ear has decreased significantly and it is not as sore as it was. ~Ted

*Natural Diuretic:

I love my Root Tea. (hit link to view) I use it as a natural diuretic and it also helps with my IBS symptoms. ~Tina

*Micro Circulation/Helping reduce Tinnitus:

I use Ginkgo (hit link to view) as it increases micro circulation, helping reduce tinnitus. Recommended by my chiropractor. ~Judy

*Migraine Associated Vertigo/Bruising:

I use Arnica Montana (hit link to view) for head and ear pain, migraine associated vertigo and tinnitus, and post drop attack pain/bruising. ~Elke

*Ear Fullness:

I rub Deep Blue from Doterra (hit link to view) behind my ears to get great relief. It seems like it ‘opens up’ my ears. ~Esther

I love Deep Blue. (hit link to view) I also have Copaiba (hit link to view) coming this week. ~Amy

*Fatigue:

I love using my Thyme Tea (hit link to view) for energy. It is a total re-boost for me! ~Gina Marie

*Immune System:

I use a drop or two of Fighting Five (linked) in water and breathe it in while sleeping. It boosts the immune system/controls bacteria and germs. ~Tommy

*Dizzy/Motion Sickness:

When I’m off balance and feeling the motion sickness, Liddell (linked) helps relief the nausea. ~Angela

*Balance:

I heard of Vertisil (hit link to view) in a support group. I honestly thought I would be wasting my time but, I was at a point where I would try anything to escape the sensation of swaying and spinning. Its been a month and I have had so much relief. ~Deena

*Hearing Loss:

Although this did not restore my hearing, I do feel as if Hear All (hit link to view) has slowed down the process. I think it has made the tunnel sounds of words a bit clearer as well. ~Jen

*Anxiety:

When I start feel the anxiety coming on, RediCalm (hit link to view) takes the edge off. ~Kristine

This is just a quick list that I was able to gather from reading what warriors had to say. It’s about time the real sufferers get their voice and opinions, from their own experience, out to others. I know without a doubt that my prescriptions are necessary to maintain my health. However, I do take supplements as well. Some doctors will actually recommend certain supplements due to side affects of medications. Always, consult your doctors before trying anything new. Please note that the above members are not responsible for these products. Additionally, refer to all disclaimers noted throughout this site.

Happy Supplementing!

I believe it’s possible that one voice can conquer the impossible. Warriors of Meniere’s Disease and Vertigo related, just want to be heard. A little awareness can go a long way.

I’ve done a certain experiment several times. I’ve approached several strangers of all different age, gender and race. I’ve asked if they have at least heard of Crohn’s Disease, Fibromyalgia or Lupus? Almost every person heard of all. When I asked if they heard of Meniere’s Disease, not one person knew the disease. Why is that? It’s time for change.

Statics of warriors (US):

• Crohn’s Disease – 1.6 million
• Fibromyalgia – 3 million
• Lupus – 1.5 million
• Meniere’s Disease – not that simple.

Meniere’s Disease is a vestibular disorder that is frequently misdiagnosed. According to vestibular.org, the exact number of people with vertigo/dizziness/imbalance issues is hard to quantify. Studies show it’s undiagnosed and undertreated. The estimation of vestibular disorder warriors is 69 million. 200,000 is the approximate number for Meniere’s Disease, specifically. I would say it’s time for further studies.

69 million people in the US are spinning and we have zero awareness. My mind can’t even process how insane those numbers are statistically. Additionally, a list (Google) of 40 famous people have Meniere’s Disease. Where are they? Why aren’t they speaking out having much more access and power than us. I’m just a woman named Gina Marie and yet, I want my voice to be heard for all fighters of this disease. I already have the attention of people associated with Huey Lewis. My letter to him has been reached. I guess I’ll be writing 39 more in the near future.

HELP ME BE THE VOICE! AWARENESS IS KEY!!! FOLLOW ME!

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Facebook (open page)- The Balacing Act

Instagram-Balancing With Gee

Facebook (private group/highly monitored)-A place for warriors to privately be yourself and safely vent or seek advice: Meniere’s and Vertigo Without Borders

Facebook (private group)-A place for Partners of warriors to help each other with encouragement and advice: Partners to Meniere’s and Vertigo Without Borders

Facebook (private group)-A place to openly pray and seek spiritual support: Meniere’s and Vertigo With Christian Borders

Many days I feared my own lack of power over thoughts that tried to control me. I would meditate and listen for guidance. It always centered me and still does to this very moment. There’s no distance too short to conquer. Then, I would pick up a pen. It’s still my way back to remembering who I am:

The longest fall to the top.
Racing thoughts, mindful stop.
Everything left, going right.
Blindful glows, in the darkest night.
Eyes wide shut, hands open fold.
Trusted betrayal, burning blood cold.
Truthful lies, hopes of despair.
Beating heart paused, meaningless care.
Complimented insults, frowning a smile.
Cowarding boldly, honest denial.
Seeing you blindly, your stormful peace.
My past is present, beautiful beast.

~Regina Jackson
©2015

(Photograph by: Scott Blasko)

Everything you wanted was just a diluted vision of everything you thought you knew.

Sometimes you need to break your glasses. You must break free from how you view yourself if your view is diluted by unrealistic expectations. Many times, we can’t see what others see in us. Other times, what others think they see is really their own insecurities or ignorance of our life. People you thought would go to bat for you, believe in you, build you up and cheer you on; may fail you in the worst of times. You’ll also find that some people can see all your great qualities, big heart, fierce fight and beautiful soul. They see what we sometimes can’t because we have lost sight of what we are worth.

Let me try simplifying my words. I contacted two really good friends of over ten years and eight family members with the exciting news of finally using my talent and building my dream. I was neverous about my new journey. They know my health issues and I made it clear that my goal was to spread awareness of this awful disease that society can’t spell, let alone understand. I’m not very good at math but, a second grader could do the numbers. I’m followed and backed for my cause by hundreds of strangers yet, out of ten family members, only three follow my progress and posts. Out of 10 invites to follow my blog to help raise awareness, only one accepted. Here is where you break the glasses and change your thinking! Everything I wanted there was a diluted vision of what I thought I knew. But, do I look at ten or do I look at hundreds? I don’t look at ten. I look at 1,625 strangers needing awareness with me, my children wanting their mom to get more help, my partner who tells me to keep reaching for my goals for all of you, and my team that does all the work because I’m too ill to work. I just write in the hopes of helping others. I’m hoping to reach you today.

If I listened to the negative thoughts or lack of support, I’d be in pretty bad shape. My worth is not determined by what others think of me. My value is not based on numbers. Support or not, how I see myself is all that matters. What others think, is none of your business.

Break free from diluted visions of yourself. You’re worth more than what you see. At the end of everyday, what you think of you, is all that matters. Break the glasses, change your thinking and Live!

Forgive the weak, get rid of the wicked, and keep going.

It took a life of 41 years, of many struggles within, to actually get to this point. With me, what you see is what you get. Love it or I’ll leave it, makes no difference to me.

👣Follow me HERE and ‘EVERYWHERE’ to build AWARENESS and find SUPPORT with many others.
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1. Push follow.

2. Enter your email. (It’s been tested for protection so no worries). It will tell you to check your email to confirm.

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4. Once you confirm, believe it or not, YOU have now voiced your support of awareness.

Welcome to our world of ups and downs.

💥Looking for more awareness and support on Meniere’s Disease and/or Vertigo? Here’s a list of where to find me and other warriors!

Facebook (open page)- The Balacing Act

Instagram-Balancing With Gee

Facebook (private group/highly monitored)-A place for warriors to privately be yourself and safely vent or seek advice: Meniere’s and Vertigo Without Borders

Facebook (private group)-A place for Partners of warriors to help each other with encouragement and advice: Partners to Meniere’s and Vertigo Without Borders

Facebook (private group)-A place to openly pray and seek spiritual support: Meniere’s and Vertigo With Christian Borders

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Hold my hand and walk with me.👣

This poem is one of my favorites. I have it’s copyrights and I published it a few years ago. It was for my mother after she passed. I’ve shared it several times, changing up words when needed to relate to something or reach someone.

Everyone who follows me knows I relate life and Meniere’s/Vertigo to a boxing match. You are going to get hit. But, like Rockie said, “it’s about how many hits you can take and keep moving forward”. In life, with or without the disease, resting is fighting. I’ve said it before. You need to go to the corner and rest up before the next round. It’s vital to winning!

I wish I could help everyone. I’m always at ring side. But, sometimes you need that extra help. I relate therapist to your trainer in the match. The trainer is a professional and can help you learn better tactics so the opponents (life struggles) don’t keep stealing the win.

Yesterday, a friend got hit so hard because she thought she could fight alone for so long. Jordyn thought everything she felt would pass. It didn’t and she exploded. Life had beat her too badly while she was still swinging and missing. Jordyn decided to trust me and called a professional for help this morning. If you don’t stay balanced in the mind, you will lose the fight. It’s a fact. Don’t worry about judgement or what others will think. It takes a lot of courage to reach for that kind of help.

This wording of that poem was always her favorite read. She had mentioned it several times in the last month. I had no idea it was a cry for help as life and Meniere’s had led to suicidal thoughts she was hiding. Now, it makes complete sense to me. Although this piece was already published in one of my stories, I am publishing it out again with a few changes in honor of all who have struggled with these thoughts.

(Mentalhealth.gov gives really good detailed imformation if you or someone who love has reached this point.)

INVISIBLE ME

Please turn around…
For the greatest high I ever had was the lowest ground my soul ever crawled.

Please turn around…
For I climb to the bottom of darkness of pain, searching for the light of what I never lost.

Please turn around…
For I’m shivering in the warmth of the forgotten memory of what never was.

Please turn around…
For I’m screaming the dead silence in a crowded space of countless time.

Please turn around…
For I can touch the numbness of the beating heart that breaks long before mended pieces.

Please turn around…
For blinded eyes stair at the unforeseen sight of binding ties to finally set me free.

Please turn around…
For the biggest demon I ever fought were the ones that made me comfortable with who I never was.

*Life and MD thought it knocked me out one day. It didn’t know I was napping off the unbalance. I was just preparing for a better day tomorrow. I was also resting my thoughts to change my thinking to the positivity we need.

#thinkdeeper #letitout

#get backtopositive #changyourthinking #reachforhelp

(Thanks to my daughter who took the picture while I slept and suggested mommy share it with her writing)